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Tenang

Setiap yang aku inginkan semuanya ada pada kamu.

Biar guruh berdentum,
Biar langit gugur,
Biar gunung ditelan bumi,
Biar semuanya hancur... Aku bersumpah tetap kamu yang ingin aku miliki...
Jelas, Segenap jiwa dan raga aku itu hanya untuk kamu... Namun... Ternyata masih wujud ruang di dalam jiwa kamu itu milik dia...
Aku tewas dek kenangan... Mana mungkin aku mampu menakluk hati yang pernah kau bagikan pada dia... Mana mungkin aku mampu menakluk ruang  yang telah kau khaskan buat dia... Mana mungkin aku mampu menakluk cinta yang sempat kau curahkan untuk dia...
Gugur satu persatu deraian jiwa, Hati bilang sabar, Esok pasti akan lebih baik dari sebelumnya... Aku tidak terluka, Hanya sedikit hiba kerana sudah tertulis aku bukan yang pertama...
Mengalah bukan tanda aku lemah, Mengalah bukan tanda aku salah, Kita cuma manusia penuh khilaf, Harus memberi dan menerima maaf...

Menangislah wahai hati,
Jangan kau biar dunia mengetahui,
Menangislah wahai hati,
Jangan kau biar siapa pun mengerti,
Senyumlah wahai bibir,
Jan…

Random Silly Things

"Apa erti kehidupan?", adik aku tanya tiba-tiba memecah kesunyian malam.

Aku bukanlah cuba sangat nak deep tapi, somehow aku rasa macam pada ketika itu... inilah jawapan yang terbaik.

"Hidup ni memang sebenarnya pasal makan, berak, kencing, tidur and repeat semua tu hanya untuk dikecewakan!".

Masing-masing saling berpandangan dan terdiam sejenak.

Krikk.. Krikk...

Finally adik aku ketawa sambil menepuk dahi, "kakak dah kenape?" dia tanya.

Aku seperti biasa, senyum selamba walaupun entah mengapa aku sedikit sebanyak terkesan dengan kata-kata aku sendiri.

Orang kata, mimpi itu mainan syaitan tapi kalau kita tengah lalui a very bad day and kita berharap sangat ianya hanya sebuah mimpi buruk, syaitan ade main peranan tak dalam hal ni? Aku syak ada! Orang yang buat hari kita seumpama mimpi buruk tu lah setan sebenarnya HAHAHAHAHAHA~

If Not At Twenty-Five?

So recently I had a chat with a bunch kids while lining up outside the ladies room.
Okay I lied. I wasn't talking to them. I was totally eavesdropping their toilet conversation. Not my fault though! The line was long and people were slow, (seriously as if they were all having this shitting conference together or something! It's taking them forever to come out!). During that waiting process, everyone was glued to their phone except for these teens. They were very into their topic.
One of them were talking about how she can't wait to be twenty-five. YES, TWENTY-FIVE! What is so great about being twenty-five eh? 
Even when one of them entered the cubicle, the conversation didn't died (it's kind of weird though because I don't speak when I pee).
Anywaysss... the main point of their conversation is that when they reach twenty-five, they somehow foresee that that'll have a steady job with great salary and a perfect family living a mansion (ok this I exaggerate b…

Surat Buat Aryan

Kalau rindu, diamkan sahaja...  Aku tak perlu tahu, aku tak berhak untuk tahu...
Kalau sayang, biarkan sahaja...  Aku tak perlu tahu, aku tak berhak untuk tahu...
Kalau cinta, matikan sahaja...  Aku tak perlu tahu, aku tak berhak untuk tahu...
Tenang... tenang...
Kerana bukan pada kamu kecelaan itu.  Jiwa aku sahaja yang telah lama mati dibunuh percaya...
Kerana bukan pada aku kebahagiaan kamu. Tawa aku sudah lama dicuri kecewa...

Helios

I could see myself running into your arms, in my head.
I held back from calling you out until it hurt so bad that I just can't breathe.
How can I be in pain when all I see, standing in front of me is love.
Why does it hurt so much when I just can't stop smiling, looking at you.

Just like the raindrops, again and again I fell hard.
My heart bounced whenever you are around.
I could never tell if it was the scarlet of your lips,
or the way you smiled, but every time I hear you calling my name,
a part of me on the inside, dies.


Japan, I'll Be Back!

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Okay... Okay...
I came back from Japan months ago but I somehow can't get over it. Perhaps 1 week was just not enough. I only get to explore Osaka-Kyoto-Kobe-Nara and honestly for some places, I didn't managed to explore it deeply but nonetheless, I was happy with the overall trip. I'm somehow glad that I only got a week to spend in Japan because it made me hungry for more. I can not wait to repeat! YES! As much as I want to explore Tokyo-Hokkaido, I made a promise to myself that I will revisit the Kansai region soon!
Anyways, I crossed most of my bucket-list for the Kansai region and still have a few left yet to be explored but I know, some day... I'll return to Japan!

Growing up, I did watched Japanese drama series as well as anime. Although most Japanese animations are translated into Malay language for local TV stations, I often watch the ones online and solely rely on subtitles hehehe.

Maybe I am mostly known as someone who's into South Korean stars but when …

Price Tag

Okay. Being an adult is not all just fun and adventurous. There are funny dumb moments as well.

Few days ago, I went to a supermarket to restock my toiletries.
Since I decided to change brands for most of my stuffs, I read almost everything labelled on each bottles of beauty products that I can reach on the shelves.

After a great forty-five minutes spent on reading and packaging comparisons, I managed to convince myself to put some products into my trolley.

When all's done, I went to do some grocery shopping. Nothing much, just stocking up some teas, biscuits and then I saw piles of SamYang ramen noodles in various flavours. Cut short, took up three new flavours. NO worries, it's HALAL!!

I kinda get a teeny weeny bit frustrated when people quentioned the halal-ness of what I eat. Oh, dear... I may not be a perfect Muslimah but trust me when I say it's halal.

Okay, yada yada yada... ent of rant now back to the trolley story.

Off I go to the cashier counter. My trolley wasn&…

Under Construction

It's been almost a year this site has been privatised.

I can never shut you down even though hundreds of postings have been reverted back as drafts but I can never find the courage to click "delete page".

I'll be back soon :)